Fetu’u To

Well Peace Corps is full of dos and don’ts and I try to be conscious of their wishes, but more importantly I try to be conscious of the culture I live in. After a year and ten months living in Tonga I have a good idea what is expected of me. Moreover I have a good idea who is paying attention and who isn’t. That said, the other night I was writing before bed. I had had a drink, but that is it, who wants to drink alone anyway? I didn’t necessarily want to be alone, but it was after dark so I couldn’t really go anywhere. However I could hear my neighbors two houses over. They were outside listening to music and laughing. I wanted to just walk over and join in the fun, but it is dark and what would Mele think? Plus I don’t know if I can keep up with a Tongan conversation, would it be weird having the Peace Corps there? Well I am sure I do a lot of things Mele wouldn’t approve of, but hey she is already asleep. Plus you never know until you try and I know the way. So I walked over and they were more than happy to have me. We talked and laughed and drank. It was Sepa’s birthday so I gave her a birthday back massage. Good thing it wasn’t a guys birthday! It was nice to be with a group of friends.
A bit later I saw a shooting star. This sparked a conversation of how to say shooting star in Tongan (fetu’u to), I had forgotten. Then Sepa told me to make a wish, Oh Yea! So I thought about it and decided my wish was to see my family and friends. I miss you all so much. Sure I am learning a lot in Peace Corps, but what am I trying to prove? Is it worth being away from family for so long? I have already made a pact with myself. My next job has to be one where I make enough money to go home SEVERAL times a year. This whole being too far away business is stupid! Don’t get me wrong I love Tonga, but I don’t love the separation and distance. Then I saw a second fetu’u to. I guess I get another wish! This time I realized that I was living my wish. I really do want to be here. Right here with my new friends in my new town speaking my new language. I don’t have much time left here and I may never see some of my Tongan friends again. I love learning new ways and things and words even though it is frustrating at times. I wouldn’t trade this experience for anything. So I guess what I am trying to say is, I am Happy.